A great week with God!
Saturday, August 04, 2007 at 1:29 AM
Hello =)A week have passed and our exams are drawn nearer by a week. Gosh, time flies dont you think? We were just learning chapters in the beginnning of the year and now, pooooofff! we're nearing our exams.
I don't feel that I've done things that are like productive enough. I managed to do them only yesterday. Wasted my days before it. I don't know why, it's like when I got home, I would do my work and try my best not to sleep. When I start studying, my eyelids got heavier and I would drift off to my dreams. When my dad is home, sighs. I feel disheartened by what he says. & his a little weird these days. Im kind of scared you see.
Anyway, why must there always be discouragements? Are they signs of unhappiness from God or are they the devil's work? I simply cant figure that out but Im sick of those discouragements. Those unpleasing words that just blurt out and ring at my ear, I felt a moment of anguish. But i thought hard, why am I getting angry when I did my part? With God's peace dwelling, I calmed down and prayed to God. It's the best I could do, really.
Today's a good day. (: First of all, those who didnt went for SOO got to enjoy the musical performance done on that very day. Cheers for the performers, well done there! The only funny thing was the fusion dance. No offence but when it comes to the part of putting they hoop thingy over them, I cant stop giggling or maybe laughing out loudly. It was really hilarious although it might be artistic or something. My friends were like, 'Lyn, here's the funny part.' Oopsie. I just simply love our school's Malay and Indian dance. They are way too Wooooot~ ahahaha. As in thumbs up! ^^
Mr Zainal asked me to find Sec 4s to play captain's ball on 8th of August. Have people up in mind already but it's now left to the N level girls. We playing against the Secondary 3s and 5s. Gosh, my juniors! But oh wells, let's hope it turns out to be fun and enjoyable! (: Haven't been working out much lately. Zzz. Anyway, after the performance, our whole class went to have lunch at the hawker centre. It was really fun and enjoying. I couldnt stop smiling and talking and laughing. Haha. Mdm Lim paid all I guess, or maybe most of the food. Whoa, she's really nice. Wein Yeong's remarks were really totally rude and out of our syllabus lah. We werent going for the free treat to the food but to enjoy with our fellow mates and our Mother of 4EC to get together and know each other better. Bonding, that's the word. Haha.
Had STARS and went back with Cia to have tuition. Everything went fine throughout the day. Thank God for it. (: Had lots of fun and dramatising during tuition with Cia. Whoa, we were practising oral. She really dramatise alot, that's her forte. Haha. Whenever she starts getting out of point, she dramatise and start making herself look sort of retarded and we would feel the 'cold' atmosphere reaching our necks! haha. But still, it was funny! Especially when we need to show the words through our speaking. For example, words were given like saying, 'Feeling', 'Fill', 'Short' and 'Shot'. Go and practise them in your mirror. Haha. It's difficult but with Cia, whoa, it's easy to recgonize them! (= Hahaha. Cant stop laughing actually. Heee.
Headed back home and went to CBSI. Today's study was on Romans 11:1-24. It was really meaningful to me after knowing God's words better. There is this Personal Thought at the end that strucked me somehow, hard. It says, 'As he disscusses God's judgement of Israel's rejection, Paul underscores God's grace and patience. No matter how firm the rejection - His grace is greater still. If you think you have strayed too far, turn to Him and experience how near He has always been.'
I thought through about this thought at the end of the study. There were many a times when I think I've strayed too far from God. Like when I do something wrong, and after that I thought about it and realized how far I was from God, not learning from His words but just neglecting them. I feel so distant from God but that didnt brought me down because I prayed, hard. I talked to God and confess my sins. From then on, whenever I feel distant, I guess like what Uncle Rodney said, the best is to talk to Him or let the Holy Spirit to dwell upon you and guide you throughout your day or life. Im just so amazed at how God can be so merciful and forgiving. For me, how can I be as merciful and forgiving as Him? We have to learn to forgive, but it's difficult for some situations though. It takes time which might never come to an end.
Reptition of doings are just popping around again. What can we do to stop the reptition? I told her, Nothing. But she still wants to care and get herself agitated. I talked to her and prayed to God, hoping that the peace from Him would rest upon her heart. It did and Thank God. Hallelujah. But it's different when the talking starts. The other party doesnt want to speak with appropriate tones and manner. Im stuck in the middle but I want to resolve all disputes. The other party needs to be taught a lesson which she never learns from anyway. But she wants to make her understand her good to the other party. How can we do that? I seeked God many a times but I cannot come to a conclusion. My faith is not strong enough, I need massive strengths and power of faith to make my prayer come true. Sigh, I must try!
Take care my friends. You know the usual quotes. Reminder again lah, in case you all forget. DRINK LOTS OF WATER (= Ciaos! & Simpsons, here I comeeeee~
With words reaching lesser
& time getting shorter
we never reached an end
to get together again.
It's depressing
and how I see
us and us
distant like a galaxy.
Those hands
that reaches me
never fails to bring upon
His peace to calm those
who are never calm
and to those who seeks His love
He is ever so ready
to stand by you
to conquer your hearts
and make you into
lovers and doers.
Let's Praise Him for his goodness,
our Lord Almighty. (: